system update: a̶̶v̶a̶i̶l̶a̶b̶l̶e̶

i’m not healing like they say in social media.

i’m not taking bubble baths or writing diaries listening to lo-fi beats.

i’m just... upgrading.

system reboot. patching bugs.
deleting old files that slowed me down.

some memories? recycled.
some people? archived.
some patterns? deleted.

healing sounds soft.
but this feels like fire.

like i’m tearing down walls built with my bare hands
just to find the windows behind them.

i’m not trying to get “back” to anything.

the old me doesn’t deserve a comeback.

he did his job.

this version’s got better features anyway.

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