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system update: a̶̶v̶a̶i̶l̶a̶b̶l̶e̶

i’m not healing like they say in social media. i’m not taking bubble baths or writing diaries listening to lo-fi beats. i’m just... upgrading. system reboot. patching bugs. deleting old files that slowed me down. some memories? recycled. some people? archived. some patterns? deleted. healing sounds soft. but this feels like fire. like i’m tearing down walls built with my bare hands just to find the windows behind them. i’m not trying to get “back” to anything. the old me doesn’t deserve a comeback. he did his job. this version’s got better features anyway.

24h away, please mind the gap.

someone i thrive & yearn to be? someone i'm secretly jealous of? someone i wish i was, any day? it’s me. tomorrow’s me. the one who knows where i’ve been, but doesn't wanna stay there. the one who still stumbles today, but laughs it away, dusts it off and fixes their playlist. the one who's always rewriting his own blueprint, while the world keeps assuming it knows his plan. i don't wanna be anyone else. just me. with more healing, less fear. more softness, less shame. more ‘i got this’, less ‘what if’. i’ll meet him soon. and when i do, i hope he smiles and says: “told you we’d make it.”